today went for the E year book briefing, for my CCA, today band sucks, kana scolding from mr fahmi and we had to carry use the dance room for band. today played our chosen SYF song and it was quite easy for me, today ended at about 5 plus and we had to bring back all the instrument back to the AVA. after band went to buy food with wilfred, teck hou, naqib, jonah, yan yan and yan liang, yan yan looked funny when she was focusing on eating her ice cream. then teck hou when to shake the tree outside cheers and he was kana scolded from the auntie and uncle cause he shake it and water start coming down from the tree. after that teck hou and naqib went to buy fries while the rest of us went home. this weekend got a lot of homework especially maths.
i had enough of being blame for everything when clearly it is not my fault but the teachers, you think that i wasted all my time for nothing, i can't do everything perfectly but i at least did my best to solve it, if this happen again then i might as well quit.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIAN SIONG[HUANG ZHONG] MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE, SORRY ABOUT NOT CELEBRATING YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY, PROMISE I WILL CELEBRATING IT WITH YOU TOMORROW.
today my CCA had a very big problem, we had no room to use as the AVA was used and we could not play outside as there was oral. discus for nearly an hour before we had band, we had no choice but to wait until 4.30pm then start practicing. today practice another new song which was quite easy. had band until 6pm and then had to rearrange the tables and chair, lucky yan yan was there to help as she was the chairman of that class. after band went to buy drinks with teck hou, damn hungry now got to go and eat dinner.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

today went out with ruizhe[zhao yun], kian siong[huang zhong] and siya[yue ying].
first me, ruizhe[zhao yun] and siya[yue ying] meet together to buy present, after that went to meet kian siong[huang zhong] and went to somerset to buy clothes for him. went to a few shop but didn't got him anything, went to eat lunch then went to plaza singapura to walk around. for the entire afternoon siya[yue ying] keep on attacking ruizhe[zhao yun] and kian siong[huang zhong] even on the MRT, walk until 8pm and then went to take the circle line for the first time ever. walk home with kian siong[huang zhong] again, reach home at about 8.30pm.tomorrow need to do homework and study for physic test which is on monday first period.
some people say pretend means coward, so should i stop pretending and be brave or should i continue to pretend and be a coward
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

today had CCA after school and me and jonah was in charge thanks to teck hou who went on a cruise, yesterday band was quite easy as we played songs like 'blue sky and sunshine' and 'ghost fleet' which sounded great. band ended earlier at about 5.30pm cause the NPCC needed to use it. after band had to punish some junior by telling them to run around the parade square.went to buy bubble tea with wilfred before going home. this weekend got maths and DNT homework, and physic test on monday.
i am lucky that i manage to escape it this time but i don't know if it will happend again.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

today went to play pool with ruizhe[zhao yun] and matthieu[lu meng] at marine parade, meet ruizhe[zhao yun] and bedok interchange first and the bus we took to marine parade was damn slow. reach there about 1 plus and went to play pool. play from 1pm to 4pm and today suck at first but got better at the end, ruizhe[zhao yun] and i played by saying which ball will enter which pocket which was quite fun. after pool went to eat mcdonalds again, saw iskandar at some soccer tournament outside mcdonald. after lunch matthieu[lu meng]000 went home while me and ruizhe[zhao yun] went to parkway parade to walk around. walk until 6pm then took the same bus home. tomorrow is another week of school and CCA why can't weekends be more longer.
sometimes i feel like putting on my headphone and listening to songs at the loudest volume so that i can block out all the trouble in my mind.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

finally have time to update my blog, yesterday band sucks not only was the conductor damn angry but i couldn't keep up with the tempo so kana scolded, we got new songs like 'ghost fleet', 'pop culture' and the famous song 'nobody' by the wonder girls. all of them quite hard to play especially the drums part. i was selected to go for some national observation which was for all the CCA leader but my drum major got something on that day so he told me to go replace him, as least matthieu[lu meng] is going with me so would not be so boring. no homework this weekend so can rest.
i finally finished writing my lyrics to the new song my friend created.
as it quietens down, the flowers blossom
as it goes further, the love becomes clear
the sky is sad, yet "love" likes it.
i didn't know then, that it was love
you like to stand beside the window
its been long since since you last came
the colourful skies dyed emptiness
that yours tears smudging away
[chorus]
i don't want you to leave
i can't get rid of the gap
the feeling of missing you becomes a sea
its outside of the window, unable to get in
forgiveness comes too soon
love become an obstacle
i flew the kite too fast and it will never come back
i don't want you to leave
i can't get rid of the memories
the love that i owed you
i waiting for a restart
the skies are still beautiful
it still love the sea
the love song having lost
the love becomes inexistant.

updating my blog cause someone told me to. well had cca yesterday which was quite easy as the band manage to play quite well. today after school went to eat lunch with ruizhe[zhao yun], kian siong[huang zhong], matthieu[lu meng] and roy[sun ce] at bedok interchange. after luch went to library and i show ruizhe[zhao yun] one book named [ken shamrock the world's most dangerous man] totally regret it as now he is going to test all the strike on me tomorrow. went home first as it was quite boring and i wanted to sleep. tomorrow got maths remedial after school so going to go cca late. still need to finish writing one more chinese letter and i am clear of homework.
i always needed time on my own, i never though i need you there when i cry, and the days feel like years when i am alone. when you walk away i count the steps that you take, did you see how much i need you right now.

yesterday during DNT finally finished building my toy car but it can only go backward, went for a 'surprised' fire drill and went the entire school reach the field, the insect started to attack, grasshopper started to jump on people, ants started to bite people and dragonfly started to attack people from the sky. after school had to go take keys from mrs lua, mr fahmi was really angry when he saw a few members slacking. band ended at about 6pm and after band me, wilfred and teck hou talk to miss chia, can't believe how tough her secondary school band was which make our band look like a paradise, watched the china people performed until 7 pm and some of their singing make my ear bleed. after that went to buy drinks with wilfred and teck hou and then went home, a lot of homework this weekends so need to start doing now.
i really felt tired especially with all the things i need to do for my seniors and CCA so i am sorry if for the next few weeks i ignore you but give me a few more weeks and you will see the old me once again

after school went for meeting with teck hou and sharlene, found out that we are in charge of the E-year book for band. after meeting went up to the AVA and we borrowed miss chia laptop to use, played soccer inside AVA and then jonah and teck hou was in charge of junior band today so they fall the juniors in. did some QM stuff and had to lend one of the zhen zhou student one tuba mouthpiece for their performance tomorrow, after that went to discus the E-year book with teck hou, sharlene and yan yan. after that i went back to AVA and i felt really tired and my shoulders started to hurt so went home early. tomorrow got band and me and teck hou are still in charge until the real drum and band major come back, don't know how much longer i can keep on doing this but i will have to be strong and continued to take care of band until they come back.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

HAPPY YOUTH DAY TO ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS ENJOY YOUR ONE DAY HOLIDAY.
today went out with ruizhe[zhao yun] and kian siong[huang zhong] to play pool, ruizhe[zhao yun] and i meet first and went to eat mcdonald. after lunch went to play pool, then kian siong[huang zhong] came at about 2 plus. today played quite well but my white ball always go in, surprised to see some of my band senior playing pool as well. after pool ruizhe[zhao yun] went home cause he got tution and me and kian siong[huang zhong] went to eat before going home, reached home at about 6pm and i still got homework i haven't finished yet like chinese and chemistry. tomorrow got band for senior from 3.30pm to 6pm.
who can save me?
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

today had band after school, first got a meeting with comminitee members. after that went to do some quatermaster things and my two assistant went to practice their instrument. band ended at about 6pm and then went to buy drinks with teck hou and was surprised to see sharlene, shiyun, hor kuan and yan yan . reach home at about 6.30pm and my head hurt like hell. tomorrow is be yourself day but i still have CCA so have to wear school uniform.
it happened for the first time and it was the most painful thing i have ever experiences, please don't tell me it is going to be like this for the rest of my life.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei