Invisible

Well it's been a long time since I updated my blog, hope that that 1 person who read would be happy that I posted something. Lately been feeling that I've been invisible, I know that's selfish of me to be like that, but just can't help it. Haha not even sure if people would still remember me in the future once they make new friends, guess that's life :). Didn't do anything exciting at all lately except for getting my iPhone 5, haha sound like a loser but guess that's who I am. Well maybe I will actually start regular blogging again since I've been bored and my only entertainment is going out to explore Singapore alone. That's all folks :)

CRAZY

well last few days have really made me crazy, actually couldnt control my emotion at all, i remember i told myself not to get used to everything but i started to feel that maybe i should open my heart to people again but it was my own wishful thinking. who am i to think that im important. im just another person who would be forgotten after a while and disappear without anyone remembering me, should i throw away all my emotion and me that cold heartless guy who walk alone or should i continuing thinking that im important. what should i do?????????????????????????????????????? can anyone tell me????????????????????????????????

i've lost everything

last few days has been killing me, it seems that i have lost a lot of things precious to me and i can't help but to think that she hate me a lot. really feel like killing myself so that everyone can be happy when i am gone

It's been at least a year since I blog and looks like this is my last and only place to write down how I really feel without anyone looking. Everything is fake my smile my mood even my words are fake.

been busy with stock checking for band, had to check for 3 days, going to have the last stock checking with the vice principle mdm tan and her auditor on tuesday after school, hope nothing will go wrong. today went to cut my hair and it burns, the barber was watching television while cutting my hair and i was damn scare. got back my result paper and this time my result were quite bad, going to put all my effort in the end of year exam. not going to blog until exams are over, ALL THE BEST TO ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS FOR THE END OF YEAR.
你總說　
時間還很多　
你可以等我
以前我不懂得　
未必明天　
就有以後
想念是會呼吸的痛　
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛　
看你的信會痛　
連沈默也痛
遺憾是會呼吸的痛　
它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛　
恨不懂你會痛　
想見不能見最痛
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

yesterday had CCA after school, no more CCA until exam end so can focus on studying again. after band went to change into home clothes and went for the mooncake festival which sucks this year, play poker with ruizhe[zhao yun], kian siong[huang zhong] and matthieu[lu meng]. then went to walk around the school trying to find ghost, after the festival went to eat mcdonald with ruizhe[zhao yun], kian siong[huang zhong], matthieu[lu meng] and donovan[sun jian]. wait damn long for bus and then reach home at about 11 plus, reached home and fell asleep after bathing. not going to touch my drums for until exam end and don't think will be going out to play.
i don't know what happened but it seems that it had cause a lot of changes.
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei

updating cause people told me to. went to play pool with ruizhe[zhao yun], matthieu[lu meng] and siya[yue ying] few days ago. nothing really much happen for the last few days, busy with some stuff so don't think will be going out to play for the remaining days of holiday. sorry bryan can't help you with your music, maybe next time dude. holidays are ending very soon and only got 3 weeks before end of year exam come, hope that my common test result will be ok.
雨停滯天空之間
像淚在眼眶盤旋
這也許是最後一次見面
沿途經過的從前
還來不及再重演
擁抱早已悄悄冷卻
海潮聲
淹沒了離別時的黃昏
只留下不捨的體溫
星空下
擁抱著快凋零的溫存
愛只能在回憶裡完整
想把你抱進身體裡面
不敢讓你看見
嘴角那顆沒落下的淚
如果這是最後一頁
在你離開之前
能否讓我把故事重寫
Derrick Ong a.k.a Zhang Fei